I've not taken Jack the rest of his belongings. Not seen him since the day I dropped him off. I have been talking to him on chat programs & it's the same funny banter that attracted me to him in the first place.
I totally-by-accident (I swear)- found him on fetlife and I laughed. I guess it was a combination of closure and no more guilt.
Today--he suggested that I get into my kids' savings account so I could visit him, bring him his stuff & have sex.
Ummm...No. No more. I'm not spending another DIME of my kids' CHILD SUPPORT to support, aid or abet him. Buy his monthly game cards, soda, cigarettes, clothing, food, coffee...etc...
But I do still want to have sex with him....
It was comfortable & predictable, at times monotonous--but it was still quite pleasurable. Damn these hormones of mine. Orgasms are more intense when they are shared. Usually.
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Well it's good your not spending your money on him anymore =) but I get what you are saying about the sex there are some of my exes I would love to have sex with again ha ha but there are other people that I can do that with so I don't miss it that much now.
ReplyDeleteDon't I know it? There are a few of my exes I'd like to see again. And again.
ReplyDeleteAnd the money thing, ugh. That's hard because I'll give anyone I care about my last dollar. But I have to separate "care" & money with Jack, because ultimately, he will continue to use me as long as I let it happen.
Yeah sadly there are are a lot of people like that but it is good you are no longer letting him use you =)
ReplyDeleteI agree, I've met more than my share in this lifetime. It was (& still is) hard to stand up for myself. I frittered for a while--but sometimes the only way out of a complicated mess is through it. We have to trudge on until things improve. I'm on the upswing now & it's a good place to be. ;)
ReplyDeleteyeah it is =) I am on a up right now too it was a good end to my year even though the middle was one of the hardest things I have been though yet. Oh and I thought I should tell you I love your blog your a really good writer and most of your sex stories really turn me on haha (yeah I tell it how it is =)) sorry if I am a little too open and honest about things thats just how I do =)
ReplyDeleteAwww-thank you so much, you made me smile & blush. No need to apologize for being open. I'll take honesty any day.
ReplyDeleteLife is a roller coaster, for sure. Glad you made it through your hard times & things are going better for you.
Thanks =) oh I seen you were on fetlife lol yes in this post but I just got on there too I have the same sn on there as I am using here =) if your unsure if its me I have two pics of my hip up
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